Sincerely, K

Journaling is a mirror of the soul, this is an out pour of my thoughts, fantasies, opinions and dreams to the world.

Wallace is being so weird. Hadn’t talked to him all day and when I finally did (because I reached out) he’s being cold. Hmph.

I’m not gonna lie, I kind of want to spend the night alone, but damn, he could at least pretend like he gives a fuck.

I’m either constantly questioning our relationship or head over heels.

I’ve got this feeling that this relationship is temporary….and I don’t actually think it’ll be my fault.

Sincerely,

K

Finally seeing Wallace was great, but not as great as I thought it’d be. Something felt off. As great as he is, something is missing. It’s not like it was before I got the title of being his girlfriend. I don’t like it.

Now I’m scared because I want to call it quits, but at the same time I feel like I may just be running from a good thing.

We went a little too far last night and I wasn’t pleased with his reaction. I’ll leave it at that.

UGHHH. What do I do?

Sincerely,

K

Wallace and I have been bickering a lot lately and some of it has been over serious shit. As in let’s wait until we’ve been dating a while shit.

I thought I knew so much about him, but I now see how much he doesn’t share with others. I’m glad he trusts me, I hope he trusts me more as time goes on.

Ugh, I just need him to come back Wednesday. I really really do.

Sincerely,

K

Wallace and I agreed not to fap until we see each other Wednesday (hopefully Wednesday) because then hooking up will be fantastic. This is probably TMI, but I’ve been able to make him pre cum and he’s been able to make me wet, but neither one of us have cum and we both really want to cum, so hopefully the build up (of not fapping and not seeing one another) will make that happen. 

Ugh, I miss him so much. I might literally attack him when I see him, can’t wait to be in his arms.

Sincerely,

K

I love Wallace so much. So so much. Wednesday cannot come fast enough.

Sincerely,

K

I’m terrible. Wallace’s dad isn’t doing well and so now instead of being in our college town to meet me on Sunday like we planned he’s not coming until next Wednesday and who knows if that’s even true.

I have no right to be upset. His dad has fucking stage 4 brain cancer. I need to be a good fucking girlfriend. Support him, let him vent, pray for him and just hope that I can see him a week from today. It’ll be fine. I’ll be fine. We’ll be fine.

And hopefully his dad will be fine too. Prayers please.

Sincerely,

K

Officially Wallace’s girlfriend.

However we are going to respect my 90 day rule and wait to plaster it all over Facebook/twitter/tumblr etc.

Yippee!

Sincerely,

K

Promised Wallace I wouldn’t drink/get drunk.

I lied. I’m on vacation, he kind of pissed me off today, I’m 21 and I’m drunk. Whateverrrrr.

Sincerely,

K

Wallace’s dad is dying. He is legitimately going to leave this earth soon and I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to support him. I feel like the worst person.

I just want to hold him, tell him that he’ll get through this. Show him that I’m here for him, but we’re 800+ miles away right now and so it’s harder for him to actually believe me.

I think I love him. I really do. It’s scary. But not. All I want to do is brag about him all day, every day and cuddle and steal kisses from him.

I’m so happy to be on vacation, but I also really miss him. I don’t expect to see him when I get back to our college town, not until summer is over. It’ll be hard, but I’ve got to put my wants aside and support him.

I have to.

Sincerely,

K

It’s cute that Wallace reads my blog daily, but we can’t let it ruin our relationship. 

Luckily I put his doubts at rest. 

Sincerely,

K

It’s cute that Wallace reads my blog daily, but we can’t let it ruin our relationship.

Luckily I put his doubts at rest.

Sincerely,

K